Remembrance

There are some hurts we get so used to, that we start to tell ourselves we really don't want to let them go. We hold on tightly to many of the things of the past that hinder us from moving on, or froming growing up. In a weird sort of way, a past hurt as a way of becoming part of you. It becomes an old friend that you call on whenever you need an excuse. You can't do or be something because the old hurt still exists. Letting go of the old hurt is so undesirable and unwelcome you don't even want to think about. If I let go I'll have to take risks and the chance exists that I'll get hurt again.

And some hurts don't heal and it's hard to believe they ever will. Someone is gone and you can't bring them back and you'll always be missing a part of you, but they would never have wanted you to live life as if you had gone with them. It's hard to let go of the pain and despair but the memory of their life and what they accomplished should be the focus of thoughts. Remembering the hurt does nothing for us. It doesn't lift you up or make you smile or put joy in your heart. Thoughts of the time spent together and the connection you had is something that you can always be thankful for.