A little hurt (Crushed actually)

You know when you're really looking forward to something and you spend all day being excited for the actual event to occur. And then it happens and it's totally not what you expected. When you're a little kid you can show your disappointment and cry and fuss and express your feelings. As an adult you try to rationalize it away and say whatever, but deep down you're really hurt and just don't want others to see how badly it affected you (or even admit it to yourself). Unlike some, I'm not a cryer. I guess I was taught if you let them see they hurt you, they've won. Truthfully, I have to really care about you to have something you say or do affect me and you'll probably never know.